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salvation.......

Thu, 05 Aug 2004 18:27:42 GMT

going to the doc's today to see if one he can fix me or two... put me on enough med.'s that i won't feel the pain anymore...i can't even walk without limping anymore...i can't get out of bed...i have to roll out and then grab on to something to get out of bed...i can't even laugh or cough without it hurting...i need a new spine or just finally die...i wish fate would pick one...oh well...hopefully i will eat chines food today if mom gets back in fifteen minutes...other than that me and my hetero life mate were once again together last night and i actually was up way after she went to sleep...yeah for me...victory is mine...

Thu, 29 Jul 2004 02:51:00 GMT

well well...i haven't done this for quite some time now...but like i have always said i really haven't had time...but now that i do i will start with....the beach...yes it was very unexpected but sam and i went with larissa, casey and meghan...well except for a few spats with Ms. Marsh....it was really fun...we drank the whole time and me and riss tried to suck what was left out of my bowl so we were always fucked up...lots of pics were taken and the are oh so funny...then we came home and i went back to working all the time...we had the baby shower for skippy and she was just soooo happy and everything went really well...then some more work and i started walking every night after work so hopefully this will help a little bit....but thats about all except we think that we are gonna take a road trip to rhode island...YEAH!!!!!!!!!!!!

Sat, 10 Jul 2004 02:05:06 GMT

Nothing new today...i went to work at nine this morning and i got home from work at nine thirty tonight...however this will be short and sweet because after a long hard day of work i'm tired and.........I HAVE TO GO BACK AT 5 AM!!!!!!!!!

anyways....ari is coming over tommorow to paint and after i'm done working a quick nap and then i'm going up to emilys for a bonfire with some of her school friends...i hope its a long nap cause i don't want to fall asleep standing up and fall into the fire which is something that would happen to me...hahaha....oh well.......such as life...

Wed, 07 Jul 2004 02:26:18 GMT

today was like no other day i worked a twelve hour shift and that was about it...yesterday we had a huge gathering of people at my house....i knew that i had to work a twelve hour day in the morn so i was like i will go to bed around eleven...well that was far from happening...some of the people had not left until i was fast asleep at 1:30am....but the funny thing that happened was that i recieved a call around that time from a young woman named sam...she told me of the events that had occured which were...she was accidentally locked at her house and she now needed a place to crash...so i opened my door too her and she came in a went to sleep...i followed shortly after...well i got to go to bed now cause another twelve hour day is ahead of me tommorow...

for those that i love and have lost...i love you and you will always be remembered in my mind and in my heart...i love you both and hope that you are happy wherever you are now...i wish that you didn't go but that was your decision and now the world will miss you and mourn for you continuously...

Whats the word i'm lookin for...

Sat, 03 Jul 2004 02:06:35 GMT

Theres nothin to aaaaaaaa.........to aaaaaaaaaa...oh whats the word i'm lookin for....."do". hahahahah...i love brian

well like it has been for awhile i have been working...i work my life away...last night ari spent the night and skippy was down for awhile and we found out that it was a boy!!!!!!!!!!!i'm so excited...but today i worked from 9 to 930 and now i have to wake up at 5am to open the store and i don't even know how...shit....but after work i go to get my foot tattooed...YYYYYYYYEEEEEEEEEESSSSSSSSSSS....just another one to add to the collection....sam i going with me and i think ari might too...then maybe we can catch a movie or something...not sure...but thats about it......until i have time again....

rocket man...burnin' out his flames

Fri, 25 Jun 2004 02:19:46 GMT

today...was a good day...i went out to lunch with my mom, after the park where i had help today so it was much easier...me and mother went to chinese for lunch after a swim and then skippy came down for awhile...i went with her to her doctors appointment and i heard the baby's heart beat...it was a good strong heart beat...wonderful...i can't wait...then we went swimming again...then skippy left and sam came over and as a joke...i told my mom that we should all be waiting for her in doctors masks...so i went down to true value and bought some and i picked her up in it and she was laughing...then my dad came up to the car in one and when we walked into the house we were meeted by my mom wearing one...good time...then we proceeded to have home made pizza from my dads finished oven and ohhhhhhhhh...was it good...we also watched spiderman and talked about sams visit to the beach and her aliments and then just now i dropped her off at home...but now i must retire for the evening because i only got one day this week where i didn't have to work twelve hours so thats why i went out and now i have to sleep cause tommorow is another twelve hour day....aaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhh

Sun, 20 Jun 2004 20:28:12 GMT

the only thing that i have been doing is working so there is not much to update about...i will not be having the children for the rest of the week i will only have one however, i have to work at choice like every single day for seven hours after i work at the park for four hours...no wonder why i am so tired all the time...oh well...money is money...and i like to have money...but thats about it i don't work at all today which makes it a good day...

ahhhhhhhhhhh...

Wed, 16 Jun 2004 14:09:02 GMT

those children have come out of the mouth of satan...now i can really remember why i hate children and why i never wanted to have any...they are the devil...well i have two little girls...their twins and i don't even have to watch them because they are so well behaved...then i have jj scotts little brother who i could just rip his fucking head off...and this little boy josh...OMG...thats all i have to say about that one...and in two days the same girl got hurt...twice...i was like honey maybe you shouldn't go on the monkey bars for awhile...nope she was back on them...oh well...then i have to rush home to get ready to go to work again at chioce...and i didn't put any makeup on because i thought that i would just sweat it all off...and who walks in but my managers son...oldest son...and i was sorry i didn't have any makeup on...maybe he will come in again today...who knows...oh well...i have no park today because of kennywood...thank god...but i do have to work at chioce from 2 to 9 oh well...its the story of my life...WORK....

hell hath no fury...

Mon, 14 Jun 2004 17:09:58 GMT

well i entered the firey gates of hell today when the park opened...i just remembered how much i loath children...they are the spawns of SATAN!!!!!!!!....well its over right now but tommorow it will be the same thing all over again...then after i get done at one i have to go to choice to work from two to nine...thats a twelve hour shift...oh well...i guess my summer is over....

Sun, 13 Jun 2004 23:42:08 GMT

this is really cute kim where in the hell did you find this...

How to make a Erica
Ingredients:
3 parts jealousy
3 parts silliness
5 parts leadership
Method:
Stir together in a glass tumbler with a salted rim. Top it off with a sprinkle of fitness and enjoy!

well maybe not the jealousy thing unless it involves RDJ or orlando or maybe billy or dom...or it could be johnny...or george or sean or ....well the list goes on forever....hahaha

deep breath.....

Sat, 12 Jun 2004 23:29:19 GMT

i have realized today that despite what act a person can put on they never really stop loving you...today is that day when i have realized that the person that i care about still loves me...not matter what kind of face he puts on i know what he feels cause i feel the same way...its gooooood...

on another note today i went over to lisa's for awhile and me and my mom went out to breakfast...then sam came over to say bye for the week cause she is going to the beach...i took like a three hour nap and it was grand...then we went to a grad. party and now i am home...skippy is supposed to come down later, but i don't know when cause she is at a grad. party too...so we will wait and see...then my brother asked me if i wanted to go over to meg's house where they are having matts extended grad party...i can't wait for that...i haven't had that ''kind'' of fun in awhile...so good bye for now and we'll see what happens later...

good...

Sat, 12 Jun 2004 05:49:06 GMT

today was a good day...at work the ladies actually left me to work the store by my self and i really impressed them because i didn't need to ask for help at all until it came to the paper work at the end of my shift...not bad especially since i have to work on the lotto machine...the paper work came out perfectly and that means...I DIDN'T FUCK UP...YEEEEEAAAAHHHH...maybe they will start letting me do my shifts alone soon...that way i can bring a book in there...fun fun...then we had a big family dinner where the marshes came down and so did sam and skippy...what fun...then i did ari's hair for her camp...sorry i don't know how to spell it and i'm too tired to look it up...i thought that it would only take like and hour or hour and a half...well three and a half hours later i finally got finished and i only took ONE cig. break...then i came back and lisa was still here and we played a game of scene it...what a good time...well she is still here and i guess i can't go to bed until she is gone but i don't mind cause i don't have to work tommorow...however on tuesday and wednesday i have to work at the park from 9-1 then i have to go to choice from 2-9 well that kinda sucks but i have to have money...soo...i gotta just deal...its not like choice is hard work or anything...and i like it...suprise, suprise...who would have thought that i would actually like a job...i'm the laziest fucking person in the world...and i actually like working...REVALATION...anyhow, i'm gonna get back to the conversation that they are having and then maybe she will leave cause its alreay like ten to two in the morning...

i just like the icon...i'm actually exhausted

well well...

Thu, 10 Jun 2004 20:36:47 GMT

you know finally getting what you want to get out is a wonderful feeling...i'm sorry to my friends but you know what i was drivin to the breaking point...i couldn't hold it in anymore...if i didn't say it...i'm was afraid of what i was goning to do...i hope that you understand...you all know the way i am...this was the only semi-peaceful way i could do this...hopefully tommorow everything will be out and we can all just go on about our lives and this will be done and over with...

i'm lovin it....

Thu, 10 Jun 2004 01:43:45 GMT

well another eventful day in the life of me...a huge turkey dinner was prepared at my house today...compliments of my mother and father...where ari, skippy, sam, and myself gorged ourselves on stuffing, mashed taters, turkey, greenbeans and bread...it was delicious...well first before that...me and skippy along with my bother, ryan, sally, mom, and baba, went swimming, then we ate, then we all decided to go back, so ari, skippy, sam, mom, baba, and me went swimming again...good times, good times...then sadly ari had to depart...so skippy, sam, me, mom, and dad...once ourselves...gorged ourselves because we went to bob evans to get a stawberry pie...mmmmmmmmmm....soooooo tasty...now we are chatting and watching the pool tournament and skippy is spending the night...not much else...so good bye for now...

hehehehe.......

Tue, 08 Jun 2004 20:35:30 GMT

blah, blah, blah, blah, blah, blah...why oh why do you ask...well...i'm not gonna tell...hehehe...no but really...today was work, yesterday was work, and the day before that was work as well...i love it...i don't think i could be happier with myself...everything in the world is good...i love my family, i love my friends, i love my work, i just love everything...its good to me...and i'm just glad that i am me...hehehe...nothing could bring me down...well, except i'm tired...but that is fixed with a nap...i love sleep even though i haven't had much of it cause of work, but i love to work there so its not a problem...well since i don't have to work tommorow or thursday, give a call, hang a little, and just have some good old fashion fun...even if it is BORING for some people...hehehehehe.....

good day....

Sun, 06 Jun 2004 02:01:15 GMT

today...well nothing out of the ordinary...it was aj's birthday and his friends came over and hit on me...especially ryan...but thats ok cause they are sweet boys...before that...me and sam, with my parents, watched Darkness Falls and then me and sam had a Nightmare on Elm Street marathon...then we ordered pizza and skippy, lisa, and dave were here too and we watched ROTK...with lisa bitching over every little detail...it was worst than me...now me and sam are going to continue out Freddy fest and then i'm off to bed cause i gotta work at 7 in the morning...AHHHHHHHHHHH...

omg......

Fri, 04 Jun 2004 19:27:42 GMT

well choice cigarettes just called me and asked me if i still wanted a job and i was like...FUCK YEAH...so the laday asked me when i could start and as a joke i said if you need me tonight then i will come in...and she was like....well actually...could you come in from 6 to 9 and i was like yeah sure...so now i have two jobs and i am all the more happier...so i will be home around 9 930 so if you wanna know how it went give me a call...hahhahahah...i'm so happy...when working i can sit on my fat ass smoke a cigarette and read a book...and get paid $6 an hour...what more could i ask for...

i feel much better now...

Fri, 04 Jun 2004 15:17:03 GMT

i hope you don't mind but i stole this from you

[spell your first name backwards] acire
[age] 19
[where do you live] with my parents
[four words that sum you up] cruelly honest, fun, truthful, and take your pick of nypho or pothead (i know what one emily will choose)
[wallet] leather two pocket that i got at sru and hangs on my keys
[hairbrush] light brown boars hair
[jewelry worn daily] scooby watch, and two rings and also my class ring
[pillow cover] black
[coffee cup] las vegas
[shoes] black and tan flip flops
[cologne/perfume] cucumber melon
[piercings] ears, five holes in each
[clothes you're wearing now] red bird house shirt with black pj pants

MIXED QUESTIONS:

[wishing] people could be honest
[after this] reading dracula
[talking to] no one at the present moment but sam will be over
[eating] i ate everything in my house and now there is nothing left.....
[fetishes] honesty, cleaning (this is a new development), and what ever else i don't notice......
[some of your fav. movies] well since this is movie prosepective...LOTR (all), bruce almighty, alice in wonderland, life as a house, family guy (i know its not a movie but i watch the dvds like everyday), a life less ordinary, finding nemo, ghostbusters, holy grail, south park, meet the parents, all the nightmares on elm streets, and so on
[something you're looking forward to in the upcomin months] working and getting away from my father and then new york
[last thing you ate] popcorn
[something youre hella afraid of] spiders, and also the fact that i blow up really soon but i'm only kinda scared because it will involve the people that i love
[if you could have any animals as pets what would it be}well the first would be a horse, then a snake (a huge boa) and then probably a Newfoundland, great dane, jack russel terrier, akita, 15'' beagal and so on
[three cities you wouldn't mind relocating to] rome, athens, the city of all cities, NYC
[some of your fav. foods] my dads tortellini, then of course soft pretzels, and pizza and cream of broccili soup
[something you wish you could understand better] why we dont kill those sons of a bitches in the ME
[miss someone you haven't seen in a long time] ryan and justina

DO YOU...:

[like candles] love em'
[like incense] love it more than candles
[believe in love] yes
[believe in soulmates] yes
[believe in love at first sight] no
[believe in forgiveness] in certain circumstances
[want to get married] no way in hell
[want to have kids] why the fuck would i put myself through that tourture
[believe that you know the person that youll marry at this point in time] well.........NO!!!!!!!!

IN THE LAST 24 HRS HAVE YOU:

[cried] what the hell is there to cry about
[bought sumthin]yes...cig's
[gotten sick] no
[sang] no...besides the ocasional outbursts
[been kissed] you know this is tourture
[felt stupid] not at the moment no.....but give me time...
[wanted to tell someone you loved them, but didn't] yes
[met someone new] no
[moved on] nothing to move on about but i know some people that do need to move on with their lives
[talked to an ex] yes
[missed an ex] yes
[talked to someone you have a crush on] i wish...benny boo boo boo boo boo
[had a serious talk] yes about my father and other important issues
[missed someone] yes
[hugged someone] yes
[fought with your parents] my father who is being a complete ass.......
[dreamt about someone you can't be with] sweet sweet pippin where art thou

SOCIAL LIFE:

[best girl friend(s)] well thats a hard one... i don't want to name names, but at school there are...lindsey, casey, steph, connie, big mel, and so on, home, lifelong, ari, sam, and skippy,
[best guy friend(s)] like i said before i dont want to name names but at school there are, jason, lee, ben, brian, dan, jay, andrew, NATE at home, matt, aj, brett, justin
[boyfriend/girlfriend] all i need him for is sex so no...
[if none, current dating partner] none.....
[hobbies] reading, cleaning, movies, this, chilling with the ladies, smokin'
[pager/cell] i do not think i want to release that information
[are you the center of attention or wallflower] watch out when i get drunk....holy hell....
[car you drive] beat ass ford taurus
[would you rather be with friends or on a date] right now considering the question...with friends...cause i really don't want to be on a date...i want to be in bed getting fucked
[job] park
[attend church] fuck church...fuck god...and just fuck
[like being around people] well that depends on who they are

WHO...:

[have you known the longest] skippy but if you want to get technical my family
[do you argue with the most] well now its my dad and i really try not to argue cause we all now what happens i don't hold back and i make people feel like shit and i don't stop there cause if you piss me off to that point then i don't give a shit what you feel until i have said my piece....
[do you always get along with people] for the most part they kinda have to be like me thought cause i'm a dominant person
[who is the most trustworthy] well we are all trustworthy but if i had a problem that serious then ari, skippy or sam
[who makes you laugh the most] stewie...no but seriously...sam cause she is just...well there are no words...
[who is the nicest girl(s)]i think ari cause she is more of a peace maker now than any one...
[who is the nicest guy(s)] well there are three...jason, lee, and my boy nate
[who has the coolest parent(s)] well not to be better than anyone but i think my mom is the coolest shes like one of the group
[who has the coolest sibling(s)]stoney...hands down
[who is the most blunt] i think i above all and then sam...ari too but she sugar coats things which is ok...but tied with me is skippy
[is the smartest] sam, stoney

PERSONAL:

[who is your role model] dracula...no i'm kidding...my mom
[pet peeves] ok ready for a paragraph...really ugly people, ignorance, dishonesty, really stupid people, people wrapped up in their own little meaningless exhistance, not letting go, whinning all the time (just shut your mouth, choke on your food and DIE!!), lying, not saying what you want to say, being dirty, having my hands and face wet, not being with the ones i love, people who are pathetic (get on with your life), and so on and so forth
[ever liked someone you had no chance with] well if you think about the large picture...of course...i mean look at hollywood...besides raping...you have no other choice
[ever lied to your best friend] i would never and every one knows that
[ever wanted to get revenge on someone b/c they hurt you] you have no idea the thoughts that run through my head...
[cried over the opposite sex] too much
[have a certain "type" of person you go after] yes...blue eyes, dark hair, into the same stuff i am, interesting, tall, not a twig
[rather be dumper or dumped] well you see there are some times when you have to be the dumper but if your me, then you piss the other guy off so badly that they are forced to break up with you and thats just as good
[rather have a relationship or "hook-up"] right now a hook up
[what is your fav. part of your physical appearance] well first comes the hair and the eyes and even though i hate them, the guys love em', BOOBIES
[what is your fav. part of your emotional being] being stong minded and not holding anything back because thats what true honesty is
[are you happy with yourself] with everything that i am
[are you happy with your life]more than i could wish for
[if you could change one thing what would it be] nothing...i love myself for who i am and i don't care what anyone thinks about me

Thu, 03 Jun 2004 22:19:17 GMT

well my hair is as black as black can be now and my mother also got it all over my forehead...face...neck...ears...and arms...how she does this i will never know but now hopefully it will wash off my face by tommorow night and then by sunday or monday i can have my bright red highlights...cross your fingers and hope that it turns out...i mean its black...like shiny blacker than black...but at least i don't have that rust red at the end of my hair anymore...so its good...

with concern....

Thu, 03 Jun 2004 19:50:15 GMT

i believe in a friend ship that will last that people who really connect can get through anything...like the relationship that i have with very few people...and thats whats its all about...if you have connections with many people than you really are not that diversified...you need to be comfortable in your own skin and you also need to be ok by yourself as well...your life long friends are not always gonna be there and you will either live life alone or make new ones...the people that don't make new ones i have to pity but then again i don't...people that can't let go or have to hang on are pathetic...some people like being alone and that is fine but to be a follower all of your life is not the way to live...you have to be a leader in your own way and when you can do nothing but follow other people then you are pathetic...but however...some people like being alone...i know when i get on my own i will never have the relationships with my new friends that i have with the ones i have now and thats fine...but i will never let that connection that i have with my true friends now go away...no matter how far apart we are...but i will not live in the past...i live in the now and thats what people should do...

same as old...but old is good...

Wed, 02 Jun 2004 14:32:31 GMT

last night me sam and skippy, with my parents talked of how things used to be and how they are now and of all sorts of crazy shit...we all sat in the living room and watched Star Ship Troopers 2 and let me tell you there is a reason that the movie didn't come out in theaters...i mean honestly...who comes up with this crap...however i have seen worse movies than this one but god...it was bad...no plot what so ever...just a bunch of killing...so if by any chance you have it in your mind to see this movie...i'll save you the trouble and tell...DON'T...save yourself the agony...

great.......

Tue, 01 Jun 2004 14:57:35 GMT

well last night...sam, ari and i hung out for the better part of all night...we sat and talked of memories past and then...and then...we put in the ghostbusters...and then...and then...we played a two deck game of bullshit...well wasn't that pleasant...then ari unfortunaltley had to go away to her family...and sam and i were left to ourselves...and then...what happened then...i will tell you...sam and i put in the Fellowship and while she was passing out on the floor i picked up my Dracula book cause i haven't read it in a while and forgot some important details...and started reading it...i forgot how good it was and now i can't wait to finish it again...then i can get on with my book...how wonderful...now today...whats in store...nothing...nothing at least that i know of...if something pops up i will be excited...

Not much

Mon, 31 May 2004 18:50:45 GMT

well...i don't know when the last time i posted was...probably two days ago so let me fill you in...on friday the infamous five and skippy were down and we all were drinking...emily had a lot of jello shots and got sick and kim and i had some shots of rum...ari kim and i had shots of the jack daniels wildberry...then we all went to watch spiderman where we all fell asleep...then on saturday me and skippy hung out and got high and then i went to ari's house for awhile when skippy came back and asked if she could use my bowl then i ended up smoking again and then it was back to ari's house where she was drunk and i was high and we talked of some problems and i went home around 1:30 in the morning...then on yesterday...uneventful...today me and sam went for a walk and now we are eating...K...thats it...

oh and emily was allowed to go to cburg...thank god!!!!!!!!!!!

Why me.....

Fri, 28 May 2004 16:09:53 GMT

Sometimes in life you just have to except things and other times you just have to face the facts that life is what it is...some people do not get that...why...i have no idea...i'm tired of being the one who always plans things and...in what...nothing except some complaints that what we do is boring and that is hurtful to me...if you do not like what we are doing...its simple...don't come...just stay where you are and don't bother cause i'm tired of having my fun ruined...whenever we get together i have a blast and that is every time...now it is not my fault that there is nothing to do in this town...so if a person has a better idea...say it and we'll do it...simple huh

CAN'T WAIT FOR TONIGHT WITH THE GIRLS.......

what a great day.......

Wed, 26 May 2004 14:51:10 GMT

so yesterday i went to slippery rock to see all my friends and we had such a great time...i went to stoneys house first and met some of her guy friends there and they were awesome...then this kid named jamie rode with me to slippery rock and toby rode with stoney...when we got there we met up with nate and casey and we went on one giant smoke ride and it was just like the old days....i miss them already....i can't wait to see them agian....i also found out that me and lindsey only live about 20 minutes away from eachother so we can hang out a lot more than we thought....

on the other hand...on friday the infamous 5 are going to be together and holy shit are we gonna get fucked up... can't wait i love my girls...it will be a day of swimming, hanging, and drinking...what else is there in life than being fucked up with your best friends....love you all